Something difficult about my "lot in life." Well, I didn't win the Powerball last night, which kinda stinks but let's be honest, I don't have the best track record with picking numbers. I mean, I haven't won yet! LOL
To be serious though, difficulties are all around everyone. Obviously, they are specific to each person and everyone handles them, or doesn't, in their best way. Trying to pick just one can be a difficulty in itself.
Having a new baby, well toddler now, can really through someone's world upside down. Not necessarily in a negative way, but in just a very different, not really sure what to expect way. A new baby, and your first baby, is really all consuming. This can lead to many issues when it comes to your significant other feeling left out and this is true for me.
I spend almost all of my time thinking about Brandon and his well being that I am forgetting about the significance of the other relationships in my life, especially with Nick. I know that he has taken a bit of a backseat to Brandon when really, they should be equal and deserve equal time. But, let's be honest, most of us new mom's have a very difficult time pulling ourselves away from our babies to give that time needed to our other half's.
I have to say that I am very lucky to have someone in my life that understands that I am not purposely ignoring him or putting him behind others but I know that doesn't make it any less frustrating. Right now, my whole day consists of either work and/or Brandon and when the day is done I am so exhausted that I either want to veg out in front of the TV or read a book or go to sleep. I just haven't had the energy to focus my attention anywhere else. It's not that I don't want to or don't realize that I should, it's just that I am so tired from everything else in the day that I just can't.
I know that I need to change this because regardless of how patient someone is, there are always limits. They say admitting the problem and recognizing it are the first steps. They may just be baby steps but I am definitely working to improve it.