I think most of us go through a good portion of life thinking about our purpose. I know I have from time to time. It used to cross my mind and I would just push it back because I didn't know. I didn't really have a purpose or really, just hadn't found it yet. There were times I would sit and think about what it might be but before Brandon, I didn't really care.
After Brandon. Wow, that's all changed. I have a purpose. A reason to be here. I found this great quote the other day. "Don't wait to make your son a great man, make him a great boy." There is was. Plain as day. I couldn't have put it better myself. My life now is to support, guide and mold my son into being the best person he can be; now and in the future.
Nick made a comment the other day about how out of touch I am with life outside of Brandon. Before Brandon, I could have told you the entire rosters of football, baseball and basketball teams along with stats. That was my thing. Following my sports teams. Now, I still follow but not like I used to. I am so out of the loop with regards to anything sports related. Pre Brandon April used to consist of baseball (college and pro), spring practices at FSU, spring game and the NFL draft. Now, I couldn't tell you who FSU is playing this week in baseball or what their record is, have no idea when the spring game is (it actually just happened this weekend), didn't even know who had the 1st draft pick in the NFL draft coming up in a few weeks (I have been told it's Kansas City).
This stuff just isn't even on my radar anymore. Yes, I still follow sports when I have the time, but I'm not seeking out the information and researching like I used to. Part of it is I just don't have the time, and the other part is I would rather take the time that I would have used doing that to focus on my son; focus on being a great mom to that precious little boy.